Most of the time I just talk about video games and game development but I'd like to make a post that is about my life. After all this is a blog and not a career journal.
Relaxing more and less OCD
I find myself playing games with friends or binging shows on Netflix more often nowadays. I'm not afraid to relax as much. In the prior years every day was an anxiety party and I was the host. Without sounding too much like an asshole... money has been coming in more consistently in recent months and this has really helped me to let go of some of my stress. I suffer from OCD (real OCD, not matching shapes or symmetrical structures) and when I get flustered it really starts to show. I get a number of odd ticks that drive me up the wall.
On top of all that my ADD plays into the mess and so it becomes a viscous cycle. Lacking money/bad living situation leads to more stress. More stress leads to more OCD. More OCD leads to more stress and this jerk circle of misery just goes on and on sometimes taking 6-9 months for me to begin recovering. Despite this I don't have any other disorders or disabilities that stop me from working. So without an excuse I find myself working to avoid these problems and to give myself hope that the future will bring better days.
Spending time with friends
When I'm not working 12 hours a day or ruining my sleep schedule I seem to magically have time to spend talking to friends. While some of my "friends" actually cause more stress than they reduce I still find myself socially satisfied more often when talking to them. This is because all humans need to socialize obviously and I'm no different. My recent binge game has been Minecraft (modded of course).
Spending time building giant glass spheres and exploring the many mods included with this modpack has opened up a whole world for me to escape to. I think this is really healthy and I should've been doing this all along. A lot of people resort to games like World of Warcraft or making CS:GO a daily routine and this is no different.